Lost

There will be no next time...
There will not be until next time...
The path you have chosen for us...
There will be no next time...
There will always be the last time...
There will always be the last hug...
There will always be the last embrace...
There will always be the last touch...
There will always be the last suck...
I took you in...
I inhaled your smell...
I wanted it to last...
I wanted it to imprint in my heart, my soul, my body, and my mind...
With my broken heart...
With my whole love I had for you...
With everything I had for you...
Every stroke you gave me...
Was every invisible tear I dropped...
Every stroke you gave me..
Was every memory I wanted to remember...
Every stroke you gave me...
Was every breath I took in your body...

There will never be the last kiss...
Love me...
Let me go...

Withdrawn

I can't feel anything but miss you...
I miss you...
I miss your smile...
I miss your talk...
I miss your touch...
I miss your kiss...
I miss your hug...
I miss your embrace...
I miss your rub...
I miss your cuddling...
I miss everything about you...

I know why you did what you did...
I know it's hard to accept...
But I know deep in my heart you love me too much to let me be unhappy...
I know deep in your heart you let me go so I can grow to love another...
to find another who can provide me what I am looking for...
I know deep in your heart you only want me to be happy...

It's still hard to be away...
It's still hard to be distant...
It's still hard to be a stranger...
It's still hard to accept we would never be close again...
It's still hard to accept in my heart I agree with you...
That you would never give  me what I need...

Oh! my sweet love...
Love you too much it's hard to let go...
I am not ready to let go...
But I know you have given the time that I asked...

Silence

Love slowly goes away...
The pain stays...longer and longer...
Each day gets harder and harder to get by...
Each breath gets harder and harder to swallow...
I can't make love stay...once the mind already made up...
They say...if you love more than yourself you let love go...
I love too much to make love stay and be unhappy...

Silence...
Deadly silence...
Forever the silence stays...
I wish I can change but I can't...
The silence remains...
Forever the silence stays...

Run Away!

I know I would be a coward for running away...
I know I would be a liar for running away...
I know I would be considered weak for running away...

I just don't know how to deal with the pain...
I just don't know how to deal with the separation...
I just don't know how to keep the promise without breaking my heart...

I just know out of sight out of mind would help me heal my broken heart...
I just know out of sight out of mind would help me forget about you...
I just know out of sight out of mind would help me to move on...

Walking away is the hardest thing I would ever do...
Walking away is the only way I would survive the love's loss...
Walking away is the only way I would reserve what I have left in my heart for you...

You don't need me anymore...
So many want you just as much as I wanted you...
And you want them too...
You don't need me anymore...
You don't have to be mad or angry with me anymore...
It's the sign that I have done my part in your life...
You don't need me anymore...
Now I have to move on...to leave you...

Goodbye my greatest sweet love...
Have a good life without me...
Have a great love without me...
Have whatever you want without me...

Flame!

When the flame goes out, let it go...
When the flame turns cold, let it go...
Learn to let things go emotionally...
Learn to let things go physically...
Learn to let things go spiritually...

I don't know!

Am I doing alright????

Some good days and some bad days...

I am wondering if it's worth going anymore ...

I don't feel like going anymore... 

The part I hate the part I love ...

I am still wondering about the past and how it will affect my future. But the past has less weigh in how I feel lately. I guess it worked...

I don't feel drowning in the past as much as I used to.

I feel drowning in the present... 

I feel drowning when the past and the present collide.

I feel drowning when I thought about the day we had a long chat.

I know it was a good chat for me to know where I stood in your world.

Your world is where you like to rule... When and where and how things should be regardless what I like them to be... I don't have control in your world. 

Why did you take away some of the things I liked in your world...???

It's getting colder and colder...

I don't like it when it's getting colder...

It makes things about to die...

I don't know and I don't really know...how long I will survive in this cold period...

Bring back some sunshine to your world...

Let have what we used to have...

And why not???

Define your world...

I am still confused...

I still don't understand...

It's just not the normal world...

Am I doing alright????

I don't know...

I don't really know...

The rider's signal

The sun is out...
The weather is dry...
Gearing up...
The rider and his bike hit the road...
Hand raised...
Head nodded...
The rider's signals...
Some responded...
Some ignored...
I always wonder...
What do those signals mean...?