Second day without my savior

I am doing alright without my savior...
I had a good night sleep without my savior...
I didn't crave for my savior...
I didn't yearn for my savior's touch...
I didn't yearn for my savior's embrace...
I didn't yearn for anything about my savior...
It's a new light...
It's a new beginning...
It's also an end...

First day without my savior

Finally, I am going to live my life without my savior...
He has been there for me through the worst of time...
He has been there for me through the best of time...
He has been there for me between the times...
He left for me to figure things out...
He left for me to find my own happiness...
He left for me to stand on my own two feet...
He left for me to find my own sun...
He left for me to find my own path...

No more under your halo...
I am walking on this road alone...
Scared?
Afraid?
Lonely?

I am doing alright...
Never understand you and your motives and your actions...
Never will understand you and your motives and your actions...

Heavy thought...lighted heart...

Just missing the voice in my heart today...
Is it so wrong if I miss ...?
Just feeling the missing part of my heart...
But not longing for what I usually wanted...
Just the feeling of the warm embrace for comfort...
Really...Nothing else matters...

Love and respect

Only the ones who appreciate you will respect you...
Only the ones who respect you will stay with you...
No matter how old and how wise you are if you treat others the way you want to be treated you will receive the same treatment...
What comes around goes around...

Until that moment came

Until that moment came, I have never seen witnessed love's been washed away just right in front of my eyes...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how fragile love was...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how important I was...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how true you were to your words...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how wrong I was...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how little I was in life...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how much I wanted love to stay...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how much I wanted love to leave...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how much I wanted to believe in love...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how much I wanted to hold on in love...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how much I wanted to let go of love...
Until that moment came, I just realized I was just another girl... just another girl...coming into your life then leaving...
Until that moment came, I have never realized how easy it was to replace ...
Until that moment came, I have never realized I could stop yearning for you...
Until that moment came, I have never realized I could stop wanting you...

Get over it

Day by day look back to the past then look ahead to the future...
Day by day I see myself slowly and slowly turn away from the past...
Day by day I see myself slowly and slowly accept the present...
Day by day I see myself slowly and slowly look forward to the future...
The unknown future...
The unknown goal...
The unknown of the unknown...
I am torn between what is happening now in the present and what will probably happen in the near future...
I am not sure I am doing the right thing...
I am not sure I am doing it for me for someone else...
I am not sure if I will survive another fallout...
Part of me screaming to stop...
Part of me keeping going the way things are going...
Part of me just stalling in one place...
Emotionally exhausted...
Emotionally tired...
Emotionally drained...
I want time to freeze for a moment...
Just a little moment for me to breath...
Just a little moment for me to feel...
Just a little moment for me to call out the love of my life...
So close but so far...
Step...Step...Step...
I am walking away from the love of my life...
I am walking away from my passion...
I am walking away from my pleasure...
I am walking away from my love...
Head held high...
But the heart felt heavy...
But it is what it will be...
No regret...
Part of me has already gone...
I am no longer belonging to you...

Leaving behind...

Resentment has finally come...
Resentment has finally presented...
Resentment has finally played a part in the relationship...
Resentment has finally helped lifting my broken and torn heart...
Resentment has finally helped me to detach myself from what I am holding on...
A slightest memory of you...
A slightest scent of you...

I would trade anything to see you...
I would trade anything to be with you...
I would trade anything to feel you...
I would trade anything to have everything to do with you...
I would have given everything to give you all you wish for...

But I can't anymore...
One truth and one statement can have a great impact on someone...

I love you to the Moon and back...
And I will always love you...
But...

I am leaving behind the bad memories of you...
I am leaving behind the wonderful memories of you...
I am leaving behind everything I wanted from you...
I am leaving behind the past of our relationship...

Still torn...

Under your halo, I didn't need the Sun...
Under your halo, I didn't need the Moon...
Under your halo, I didn't need the Stars...
Under your halo, I didn't need anything...

Under your halo, I felt safe...
Under your halo, I felt warm...
Under your halo, I felt passion..
Under your halo, I felt love...

Leaving your halo, I felt uncertainty...
Leaving your halo, I felt afraid...
Leaving your halo, I felt lonely...(in my heart)
Leaving your halo, I felt unprotected...