I am only human...

I am only human.

When I feel I feel with all my heart and soul.

When I don't feel I don't feel anything at all.

Your choice whether or not to accept who I am and how I feel is all up to you.

I can't control how you feel anything about me... like to be with me, to spend time with me, to have a conversation with me, to share your feeling with me or to share your thoughts with me.

I don't make you and I never will make you.

Confused

I am really confused...

And I have been really confused lately.

Not sure what to do really.

Not sure where I stand.

Not sure how I feel.

Not sure about a lot of things.

A lot on my mind lately too.

All about life, relationship and friendship.

Where do I go from here???

Rainy day!!!

It's a rainy day...
It's cooling down the heat...
It's making me longing for a cozy time...
It's making me yearning for a snuggling time...

Feeling Alive!!!

Flying high...
Flying kites...
Flying butterfly...
Through the clouds...
Through the wind...
Through all the troubles...

Flying low...
Flying high...
Flying through all the troubles...
Feeling Alive...

Flying... flying... flying...
Emerging little pretty rave girl...

Thinking of you!

I think of you when I am happy...
I think of you when I am sad...
I think of you when I am excited...
I think of you when I am confused...
I think of you when I am lost...
I think of you when I am lonely...

I think of you whenever I see things reminding me of you...
I think of you whenever I hear things reminding me of you...
I think of you whenever I feel things reminding me of you...
I think of you whenever I taste things reminding me of you...
I think of you whenever I smell things reminding me of you...

Drifting

Drifting...drifting...drifting...
Distant...distant...distant...
Isolating...isolating...isolating...
Alone...alone...alone...
Closing...closing...closing...
Holding...holding...holding...
onto just a thin thread of connection...
between tears...
between time...
between space...
between two hearts...
Rescue me from the lonely darkness...

Lonesome

Lonesome lonesome...
Trouble heart...
Lonesome lonesome...
Scattered heart...
Lonesome lonesome...
Torn heart...
Lonesome lonesome...
Broken heart...
Lonesome lonesome...
Lonely heart...
Lonesome lonesome...

Gone

When you have your heart fulfilled, you don't need another.
Understanding what is to expect makes a whole lot different in how you feel...
Understanding what you would get out of it makes it a bit easy for you to breath but hard to cope when your heart has already been given away.
When you put everything into your heart for someone, it's hard to tear yourself away so suddenly.
Slowly and slowly numb your heart and let love go.
You don't need my love...
I have to let my love for you slip away...
We are drifting apart...
What I want is not the same as what you want...
Letting go of something that is so special and has never been felt before in my life is the hardest thing I have to do...

Time and space intertwine...Heart and soul intertwine...

I need time to be distant...
I need time to be alone...
I need time to be away...
I need time to be separated from you...

I need time to adjust the distance you put us through...
I need time to adjust the silence you put in between us...

I need time to create the space in between us...
I need time to stop thinking about you...
I need time to stop yearning for you...
I need time to respect myself...
I need time to be me without you...

I need time for my heart to be distant...
I need time for my heart to let love go...
I need time for my heart to feel nothing...
I need time for the void to fill my heart...
I need time for the memories to fade away...

Time and space intertwine...
Heart and soul intertwine...

Until next time

I counted the days...
I counted the hours...
I counted the minutes...
I counted the seconds...
Until the time we would meet again...
Until the time I might see the sight of you...
My heart used to jump with joy whenever I saw the sight of you...
Now it just felt like someone just squeezed my heart out with the pain of knowing that it was not me you wanted to see... or it was not the time for you to pay attention to me...
But yet I am looking forward to every time to see you...
Yes...until next time...silence fills in the space between us...
Yes...until next time...I am missing you...
Yes...until next time...I am thinking of you...

The bliss of passion

You make me hot...
You make me light...
You make me high...
You make me wild...

I love the way you move...
I love the rhythm of your move...
I love the rhythm of your body heat...
I love the rhythm of your body sweat...
I love the rhythm of your heart beat...

Apart

Who says "you can't go wrong when you follow your heart"?
Everything seems to go wrong when we are apart...
It would be harder for me to cope when we really fall apart...

I have met no one like you...

No one has touched my life like you have...
No one has touched my heart like you have...
No one has brought out the best and wildest side of me like you have...
No one has touched me like you have... 
No one has held me like you have...
No one has kissed me like you have...
No one has matched me with my passion like you have...
No one has understood me like you have...
No one has made me happy like you have...
No one has made me sad like you have...
No one has loved me like you have...

I love you... and always love you even when we really fall apart...
I love you... and always love you even when you don't understand me...
I love you... and always love you even when you want to be apart...
I love you... and always love you even when you want to be distant...
I love you... and always love you even when you are mad at me...
I love you... and always love you specially when we are together...
I love you... and always love you specially when you understand me...
I love you... and always love you specially when you let me know you want me...
I love you... and always love you specially when you let me know you miss me...
I love you... and always love you specially when we are close together...

I would miss your love when we really fall apart...
I would miss your touch when we really fall apart...
I would miss your smell when we really fall apart...
I would miss your passion when we really fall apart...
I would miss your kiss when we really fall apart...
I would miss your embrace when we really fall apart...
I would miss you face when we really fall apart...
I would miss your eyes when we really fall apart...

I couldn't never describe enough how I really feel about you...
I couldn't never describe enough how much I love you...
I couldn't never explain why I love you the way I love you...
You do take me for who I am...
You do take me with the best of me...
You do take me even when you know who I am...
You do take me even when you know the worst of me...

I know the day will come and it will come ...
I hope it won't be too hard for me as I imagine it right now...
But it belongs in the future...
I am living in the present...
I am forgetting the past...
I am not worrying too much about the unknown future...

I know I love you so much it hurts...when we are distant...
I know I love you so much it hurts...when silence fills the space in between us...
I know I love you so much it hurts....when we are apart...

Does it have to be this way?

I am getting used to it...
I am getting used to it...
I am getting used to it...
But does it mean I like it???
No I don't like it...
I am just getting used to it... to pass the time...
I am just getting used to it... to let you have control...
I am just getting used to it... to let my power slip...
I am just getting used to it... to let my heart numb...
I am just getting used to it... to let everything go...
But I know I should not let it be this way...
This is where the past and the present collides...